Self Discovery

As I am on this journey, going into week 2 I realized something about myself. I absolutely loathe routine. I become bored easily. However, organization and stability in the household are key for me. Certain things have to be routine but all else needs to be different. I prefer an ever-changing environment. I require adventure and excitement. I could never put my finger on it but I finally realized I just detest routine. I can't stand it. Certain rituals, like working out and prayer are great, but when it comes to the majority of my day it needs to be dynamic. And even my work outs needs to change. Makes sense considering the line of work I do.

Self Development

As I stated in previous blogs this week, I want to break all mental and physical boundaries this year. You will see me write that a lot as I will constantly remind myself. I am a visual person, so it works for me :) I want to surpass all the beliefs and mindsets that have held me back. It's time to move forward with my life. I never want to stop developing who I am as a person. I strive to always become better, closer to God, healthier, open to others, and more loving. It's easy to become jaded in an world full of hate, to become hurt in a world full of broken hearts, and to become discouraged in a world full of jealousy. I choose to become the best I can be each and every day. I realize there is no final destination in this goal while here on earth yet there are big and small goals to set and achieve along the way. My prayer has always been that God make me into the person He wants me to be. Each and every time I have said this prayer, powerful things have occurred and happened to me. Achievements, opportunities, new projects, and progress have all unfolded from that prayer. And although sometimes I felt I was not ready, too imperfect, inexperienced, I somehow through God's grace always had success with anything He put in my path. God's will is to be lived. It is the greatest. My life has had the most rewarding experiences in it because I have prayed. I started Live Out Loud Charity through seeking my life purpose in prayer. We have had exponential growth in a very short amount of time. We are gong on 5 years and people always ask how in the world did my business, Tiara Magazine, and my charity, Live Out Loud Charity, grow so quickly? In astonishment the ask this and I have one simple answer: God. I believe each organization would be even further if I did not lose sight when negative people tried to tear down what we were building. Understand, it's not their actions that matter, it's how it's handled. Remember to always stay the course and to stay God focused. If you stay focused on your mission, you will always have success.

Sincerely,

Sherrie Gearheart

Twin Flame, True Love

Before you know it, the sadness was not worth it. The pain, the wishing and wanting, had no real purpose because nothing could change. Everyone has a threshold they choose, the person they decide to stop developing. That's why you must realize things for what they are and accept it. Hoping and praying that one day it will all come together and along the way you learned everything you needed so you would be complete in God's glory for the one you were truly meant to spend the rest of your life with. Forever. Forever is a very long time. If spent with the right one it can be an ocean full of magnificence and peace. Or forever can be a life sentence to imprisonment and death on earth. And although we are all broken inside, to varying degrees, we are also full of love, God's love. Afterall, isn't that what we all want or wanted? Of course it is but we must dodge the demons and find the angels while remaining true to us knowing that throughout the journey you did the best you could while choosing to honor this one and only life you were given. Living without regret. Living to the fullest even though you are still waiting.... And by God you choose to honor it by living it with happiness and not misery. This isn't about giving into misery and succumbing to a horrible, faint, existence where you want to die. Your fate is in your hands. Your destiny is in your soul. The walking dead are among us and you can become one of them or succumb to their fate. It's a life you choose to live for better not worse. For rich in spirit not poor in love. Through thick and thin, you stand tall. And when you crumble and fall, you have a faith in God. Whether far or near, you love because through preparation there is a knowing that you will be together again...... after all your twin flame is waiting for you but will you be ready for them when they arrive?



Sincerely,

Sherrie Gearheart

Breaking Mental and Physical Boundaries- Week 1

I plan to break all physical and mental boundaries this year. You probably recall me writing that two blogs ago. I decided to start this week. It starts with celebrating my current body, which I love now. However, I want to become an athlete again. I miss being able to run, to swim, to dance, to do all of the things I absolutely love. So this year is dedicated to breaking those mental and physical boundaries that have held me back. I have a greater appreciation for my body than I ever have. So I will simply enjoy it as it changes into an athletic version of me. The me I used to be........ I am so ready for change.

We are far more powerful than we realize. If we say we don't have time to work out or eat healthy then we are consciously choosing to live that way. But if we decide to go for a walk, prepare meals ourselves, and do a little research, then we have consciously chosen to do so. It's up to you.

No makeup just me. Like I wrote in my recent blog, this year I want to become an athlete again. So here's to tracking my progress. This is just me from eating healthy no exercise yet. But I plan to break all boundaries this year both mental and physical. ♡ July 2, 2014

Warm hugs and air kisses sent your way xoxo
Love always,

Sherrie

Hot Air Balloon- Orlando, FL

I forgot to mention in my last blog that I went on a hot air balloon. A few of the girls and I decided to be a bit adventurous. It was a lot of fun. I am really afraid of heights but I love to face my fears. This one was far more enjoyable than the hot air balloon I went on in Chicago. Chicago's was scary! Even the guide was afraid and once we all got off onto solid ground they ended up shutting it down because the winds in the city were that bad. After all we are called the windy city. I went on the Chicago hot air balloon in 2010. I decided to be adventurous and try it at Downtown Disney in Orlando, FL. Once we made it to the top it was so gorgeous and the view was breathtaking. I relaxed until everyone started moving to the opposite side of the balloon and we started tipping really bad. Ugh yea. One of the girls started recording me and Miss Wisconsin. We sounded hilarious. Heights are not our thing. But wow, I really enjoyed it. Besides, imagine being on a real one that just floats across the earth. I am adventurous but I don't know about being quite THAT adventurous lol.

Warm hugs and air kisses!
xoxo,

Sherrie

Week One Florida 2014

My beautiful, kind-hearted cousin Althea Gearhart, Sherrie Gearheart (Miss Illinois US International), and my amazing, loving mother Betty Napier. <3>

Althea Gearhart and Sherrie Gearheart. Necklace by Mixxi G Accessories and Dress by Gipper Formal Wear.

My first week in Florida has been a blast. I flew in first class and decided I never want to fly any other way. This was a gift from my mom and dad..... I have come to many realizations on this trip although the others are not as superficial sounding.... but hey we all deserve happiness don't we? When I was on the flight I became teary eyed. I realized i had not seen my mom in one year. The moment I was off the flight and saw her I wrapped my arms around her and cried. Every girl needs her mom. I am so happy to be here with her.  I have sad news to share in my blog..... and then I can share the rest which is happy. During my first week in competition I found out a friend of mine died. She was murdered in her apartment. She had the entire world going for her and I can not believe she is gone. She was super tall, naturally thin, gorgeous, and recently signed to a major modeling agency. She was a sweetheart, an angel, and I will miss her forever. She modeled for my charity (Live Out Loud Charity) and my magazine (Tiara Magazine) in the past. I miss her dearly. I was just telling her a month ago on facebook that she had everything it took to become a famous supermodel. And someone took her away from us. A murderer took her away from her family and her friends that loved her dearly. I found out about her death the last day at my competition. I cried and cried. During this trip I have come to so many realizations about my life. Many of which I may end up revealing in this blog...... some I may not share. Life is short, as I have always said, but now, my perspective has deepened, my paradigm shifted. This is the 2nd week into my trip and I found out my uncle is in the ICU. He suffers from alcoholism. I have watched him suffer with his addiction my entire life. He is an angel too until he drinks. I wish, if I had one wish, to eradicate all substance abuse addictions. This is one area I want to deepen with Live Out Loud Charity. Although I have spoke candidly with teens in the past, we plan to further develop an action plan to combat this problem as it is the 2nd leading cause of suicide, the first being depression. It breaks my heart to see my family suffer so senselessly. It is more common than you think. Almost every family has at least one family member suffering with an addition problem. Its more than a problem. It's a life sentence that imprisons a soul and prevents it from truly living. God, I am so heart broken for my friend and her family and for my uncle and our family. And although this sadness is deep within my heart I am still sitting here deciding to enjoy life because life is short and you never know when your last minute here on earth is....... If I had a second wish it would be to eradicate violence both to self and to others. God bless my uncle and all those suffering with addiction. May God heal them. God bless the families that need to stand tall. May God give them certainty, guidance, strength, and knowledge to do what is best. God bless the souls that have been taken from us, the families, and friends that miss their loved one dearly. I pray for justice through God. I realized there is so much in this life I want to do and have yet to accomplish. I started making a list of things I love. My world has been consumed by helping and giving to others, which is my passion. However, now I realize in order to nourish my soul I need to experience the things I love..... I encourage you to make a list of things you love and cross them off. Sort of like a bucket list..... but it doesn't even have to be that dramatic. <3 br="">

My first week in Orlando. Keeping it 100.
I am done keeping my mouth shut. This is the year I speak my mind. No disrespect. Just honest truth.
It's freeing when you say what you need to say. It freeing when you simple are who you are without any care in the world of what others think. I am who I am. Take it or leave it. Read it or diss it. I don't care. I've cut a lot of negative, nasty people out of my life and I kept my mouth shut publicly about it. Now there is no need. So although this blog is not about this past year, it is about this week in Florida so here it is........

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My first week at competition was fun. I really enjoyed this pageant system mostly because the competitors were so sweet and down to earth. I made friends and loved it. Everyone loved my outfits which were almost all from Gipper Formal Wear and my gorgeous opening number necklace from Mixxi G Accessories. Despite having it all together, I knew this wasn't my year to win, I could feel it based on many factors so I just went in having fun. I know I am capable. I know my worth. But I also knew I wasn't wanted by the system, it was like a repeat of Miss Illinois Scholarship Association all over again (where they lead chaperones kept losing my paperwork on purpose and saying I was missing deadlines even though I had tracking on my paperwork). Just keeping it real.  So Miss US International turned out to give me the same vibes. I realized my intuition is always right. When the lead makeup artist won't work with you because "she's booked" (while shes looking to work with others) and the the person in charge doesn't treat you like you could win, rather as a pawn to grow the system (months before the competition), yea you just know.  Fortunately my self worth was not wrapped up in the staff's decision making. I knew months before I went but I went anyway. I am glad I did. It strengthened my beliefs in many ways. I had a blast regardless, making new friends and bonding with family. During the first week I met my distant cousin Althea. She flew into Orlando the 2nd day of my competition. She is an angel. One of the most fun, understanding, down to earth women I have ever met and I am so proud to call her my family. I wish she was still here. She flew out this morning. I wish she came in toward the end of my competition so I had more time with her while not being wrapped up in the pageant. Fortunately, her and my mom were able to hang out at the hotel pool while I was in pageant activities. And once the pageant was over we were all able to connect and have fun throughout the week. We ate at Wolfgang Puck in downtown Disney, now one of my favorite restaurants. I love anywhere that caters to my diet: gluten free, dairy free, soy free. It was a great place to eat and the chef came out to greet and meet me to discuss my dietary needs. This is something I wish all restaurants did and only classy ones seem to do. This competition gave me new perspective and great appreciation for my body. I am far more toned than I realized. I also want to go back to being athletic like I used to be and I have decided I am going to break all mental and physical boundaries this year. No more just being skinny and toned. I want to be an athlete again. Although, I love my toned curves. Like I said, I developed a great appreciation for my body and its curves. <3 br="">
Angels

So once the competition was over we started to drive to my mom's place where we (my cousin Althea, my mom, and I) decided spur of the moment to go in for an angel reading. Wow. It was the most incredible experience ever. I happen to be very spiritual and I am very religious. This woman gave insight into my life that no one could have ever known. I came in dressed in basically sweats, hair in a messy bun, no makeup, basic clothes, and yet she knew everything about me. It was exactly what I needed. The next day my step dad, Althea, and I went to Daytona Beach. It was incredibly gorgeous and what I needed most. It was so peaceful on the beach. I finally went into the water. I love the ocean and I absolutely love Florida. After the beach we headed to St. Augustine, Fl. One of my favorite places. I saw the most ornate, historical, gorgeous college I have ever seen. It's called Flagler College. Hmmmmm...... who knows, maybe when I am ready to finish my degree I'll do it there. You just never know.

Until next time, warm hugs and air kisses. 

xoxo,

Sherrie Gearheart