When I dance, I am free. When I sing, I am at peace. When I give to charity, I am fulfilled. When I speak, I am alive. When I pray, I am all of these things and more. -Sherrie Gearheart
Wrote a new poem today. It will be in my poetry book coming out this summer, the books called RAW. Ive included it for you at the end of this blog. I can't believe how fast this year is moving. I have a few personal goals in the works. Also, Tiara Magazine is achieving some phenomenal things this year too. It's hard to comprehend sometimes, how many things are moving at once, up the ladder. Between Project Michelangelo, Live Out Loud Charity, Tiara Magazine, and my personal goals, I am very busy and yet fulfilled which is important. I could just spend days talking about the positive things happening within these organizations, but if I did that, then nothing would evolve because things are moving that fast. I'm really used to the fast paced lifestyle. In fact, Ive tried to force myself to slowdown since I am taking college courses again.... I am in month four this year already (with classes) and I am still trying to sloooow it down lol. I know it's just a phase but the fast paced lifestyle isn't. :) And that is fine. I do have to say I am proud that I took an 8 week course and passed. Its usually taken in 16 weeks with a pass rate of 30%. And yet somehow I managed to pass it in 8 weeks with a very good grade. I can't say it was easy because it wasn't. It took a lot of hardwork and dedication. And now I am in the follow up course and my professor stated to our class that it is impossible to pass this course. I spent time with her the next day to work on material I missed while I was away at a business meeting. She shared with me that I will be one of less than a handful that will pass. I hope she's right.... I know she will only be right if I continue to work hard. My education is very important. I am part of an honors society which I have received two awards from and I am working on becoming part of another honors society. It's hard to maintain school, my business, and my charitable work/appearances all at the same time. I think what is hard about it is the fact that everything is moving so fast (meaning new advancements are happening all the time because each thing I am part of is successful so there is never a dull moment).... many people are constantly wanting to connect with me, form partnerships, to have me speak, etc. And I have had to learn to say no to some things so I can finish earning my education which is also very important to me. I currently have academic honors. People who know me call me an over achiever... I believe if you are going to do something then you should do it right. Why go to class if you only want a C grade. What are you really walking away with then? I know if I get accepted into one of my top schools I will have to shift things in my life.... but I will cross that bridge when it happens. Right now I am finding time to still enjoy life little bits at a time (even though if you have ever taken an accelerated college course you know that is near impossible!!!) One of the things I did was reorganize my walk in closet and I JUST LOVE IT!!! I hung my jewelry on the wall like art and I bought eco friendly hooks and placed those high up on my wall to hang my purses. My shoes were then placed on the shelves. My pageant gowns were placed in bins and all of my jewelry was completely organized. I LOVE it. I have so many shoes that I was thinking of creative ways to hang those too but for now I am happy with the way things look. I took out most of my winter wardrobe and replaced it with new items that are spring appropriate. Sometimes I feel like I am the only person in Chicago wearing spring colors. I can't stand seeing all the blacks, grays, and dark blues. Come on people, lighten up for spring. I love the splash of color that is displayed in my wardrobe. I bought some pastel pumps and purses.... Yes I kind of went on a shopping spree..... I am also adding an authentic oriental handcrafted piece of furniture to my office collection. My office has a feel of oriental theme meets fashion. I know it sounds strange but I love it. I didn't expect it to happen that way but while I was unpacking my items from storage I realized I had all these little oriental trinkets I had collected throughout the years along with my beautiful bamboo plants that I have had forever. I think my bamboo loves my place because it sprouted two new babies after I gave it, its new home. It is extremely rare for bamboo to do that. Speaking of plants I placed my grandmothers vine plan in the corner of my bedroom hanging from the ceiling. This plant has been in the family for over 50 years. I can not express how much I love seeing it everyday when I walk into my room, it lights up everything. Not only did I organize my walk in closet, my makeup drawers and my office, I also did more. I had a shopping spree at the container store and bought organization items for my kitchen and bathroom too! I plan to finish a couple organization projects this summer which will be fun for me. I have also enjoyed writing music again and dancing. I absolutely love to dance. To enjoy life I had my niece Cassidy with me an entire weekend, we baked, celebrated her birthday, and had tons of fun. I just love being around her. And I just want to express that I love my job. Being editor of Tiara Magazine is very fulfilling. I love all of our models, board members, brand ambassadors, and Tiara family. I love the partnerships, the meetings, etc. I use my creative mind in a different way with my business whereas my creativity would normally in the past be viewed through music, art, and dance. For now it's with marketing, advertising, managing, and more. It works. One of my favorite events coming up is for LOLC. We are partnered with a fitness company that is presenting how suicide prevention (LOLC) and fitness is closely tied together. This will be held at Columbia College's Health Fair in Chicago, IL. I am very grateful for this opportunity. I am also emceeing a charity event in about a week as Miss United America along with my dear friend Jojo Sayson. The same week I am emceeing a fashion show and I get to model as Miss United America again! The following week I am performing an Easter Cantata which means the world to me <3 April is a busy month.
Aside from organizational plans and educational goals.....
I also have many travel plans this year. I am passing on my title in Austin, Texas at the Miss United America Pageant. I have friends in Texas and one of Tiara Magazine's brand ambassadors is from that area. I plan to visit with her this June. Her name is Crystal Howard and she is competing at Nationals a week before my national pageant. I am so happy I get to meet her sooner than expected =) I am visiting Florida to see my mom. I can't wait to see her. I miss her so much. We talk almost everyday... for hours. LOL. I am also going to the Philippines for Project Michelangelo as the Chief of Public Relations. I look forward to the charity work. I am also traveling to Spain for the Miss Intercontinental Pageant since Tiara Magazine is their official magazine, they are sending me out there :) I am working on a trip to Milan at the moment and England. I need to go back to my roots... its a long story.
I have had several photographers reach out to me that want to shoot with me on a one on one basis. I'd love to shoot but I have 6 shoots to plan for Tiara Magazine at the moment!!! I am scheduling a shoot for our 12 beautiful Brand Ambassadors, our new cover model winner (tba very soon, there will be a voting process set up soon), a shoot for our spectacular fitness issue premiering in China, an editorial shoot with a high end boutique in Chicago, and more! Photo shoots Galore!!!! So you can imagine how I feel about shooting for myself at the moment....
Here is the poem I mentioned above. I wrote a song when I was 16 about a woman losing her husband in the war. I wrote it while my grandfather was dieing in the hospital. My grandmother told me I was writing it about her and my grandpa, since he was in the war. It's clearly been several years since then and I started working on this song again. Ive been working on new verses. I have recorded several different versions. Today was completely different though. Today it came out more like a poem with a different feel. So I decided to keep this version as a poem. As for the song... it is still in the works. I hope you like the poem.
The Story
Poem by: Sherrie Gearheart
My God, My God
we shared so many moments
happy as can be
when he'd kiss me.
He'd grab my hand,
pull me close,
we'd dance in the sand,
I'd look into his eyes.
My God, my God
How could this be?
Another chapter
in this story
The fact of the matter is
that chapter is done & ended.
I can't pick up the pen and write again
in this dead end.
My God, my God
When I look into his eyes
I see the whole world
And now it's compromised.
How do you expect me
to wake up and live again
when you took away the one thing
my baby
My God, my God
I can not go on
living in this nightmare
this ain't fair
you cant tell me to smile
when my days are black and bleak
How dare you make fun of me
he was my baby
My God, my God
I'm so alone
missin him
his eyes, his wit
and now here I sit
Will he walk through that door
I sit and wait,
was this all fate?
My God, my God
how could you take
my baby from me?
Is this all a dream and fake?
I open my eyes, I toss and turn
was this all a lie?
Why...why....
These tears in my eyes
All I can do is cry.
-Sherrie Gearheart
